One of the things that I’ve been allowing to take up more and more of my free time lately is a dive back into the world of art, more specifically the creation of it. There was a time as a youth I was drawing for hours a day. It’s how I spent my free time when I wasn’t playing sports or attempting schoolwork. I took summer camps in art and was often enrolled in various drawing classes. I was particular fond of cartooning but I liked drawing just about anything. It was an escape or an outlet for me. I continued on with art well into high school until I hit a wall. It was like a block and something that came so easy before was no longer at my whim.
It’s possible part of the wall for me was that I was starting to get graded on art as assignments. That somewhat took the fun away from me, though it did force me to try different art forms or ideas I wouldn’t have attempted otherwise. There was also a psychological hangup on grades for me…was this thing I worked really hard on just a B but this other thing I slapped together on a whim really an A? I couldn’t make a ton of sense of it and literally the creativity I had used almost effortlessly for 15 years or so was gone. It probably also didn’t help that around this time I had multiple injuries from sports to my hand and wrist, of which I am not sure I ever recovered the dexterity or control I had with my writing hand.
When I got to college I realized that I had a reasonable amount of free time (don’t tell anyone but I rarely studied) so I came to the conclusion I needed an outlet for creativity. I just couldn’t draw anymore. So I picked up a guitar. I didn’t know anything about music, literally nothing so everything was blue ocean for me. At the same time the internet was becoming a thing (now that makes me sound ancient) and people across the world were posting how to learn how to play various songs using tablature. It was exciting to learn something completely foreign to me, so I played guitar everyday learning old REM songs since they were familiar. To this day, I still manage to play 30 min to an hour everyday. I am not great by any stretch of the imagination but I kind of know what I am doing by this point. It is an outlet. Music allowed for me to regain what I lost in the visual arts.
Fast forward to about a year or so ago. My family and I were in a furniture shop of all places and my daughter saw a painting of a horse that she really liked. She asked me if I could paint something like that. See she knew I could draw because for each kid’s birthday I draw a custom birthday card for them that matches something going on in their lives. This was really my only time all year that I’d pick up a pencil to draw because I had a purpose. But when she asked me to paint this horse, I guess she assumed I could do that based on the birthday cards. Trouble is I never really learned how to paint. I was not trained in that. But I didn’t want to let her down and thought it would be an interesting challenge so I said…’Yeah, I’ll paint you a horse’. In my mind I wasn’t sure how I was actually going to do that but it was exciting to think of how it might go down.
I bought some super cheap paints off Amazon and went to work to create the horse:
This is unlikely to make it to the Louvre but I’ll be damned if it isn’t a decent looking horse. I rather liked painting, especially using acrylics as they tend to dry fast, you can layer them and if you totally screw something up…just paint over it. There was something cathartic to that last point. There is always a delete option.
Having liked it so much, I bought a bunch more paints and made it an assignment to paint each week. Some paintings I could finish in a 30 min, some took weeks based on trial and error. But all along I enjoyed it. I enjoyed the challenge of doing something I had no idea how to do. I’ve even added a link on this blog to some of those works along the way: https://hazenjames.wordpress.com/hazen-art/
I’ve ended up giving some of pieces to friends and family and honestly the experience gives me energy. I take a lot of pictures which act as inspiration sometimes for new paintings and I am always looking for the next thing to paint.
So why does any of this matter?
- As we look towards the new year, it’s a great time to get out of your current state and expand what it is that makes you. Maybe you have a hidden talent lying dormant.
- I think everyone can do art. I am not kidding. I hate it when people say “Oh, I suck at drawing” or whatever. They just aren’t allowing it to happen. We all have the capacity to create, we just have to do it. Art/Music/Literature is what makes us interesting. Just because you aren’t professional or formerly trained doesn’t mean you can’t create amazing things
- I honestly believe the arts are what can give people a competitive advantage in the workplace. Everyone in business school generally studies the same case studies, etc and therefore is programmed to think in a relatively uniform manner. I firmly believe my background in art has helped my career in analytics and managing software development to think about things differently. It’s allowed me to view work as a creative endeavor, another extension of creating art using a lot of the same processes to figure things out. I would not be where I am without that background.
- Share your art, your creativity, your soul, your vision. Who gives a shit if people don’t like it. Someone will.